IS GOD IN CONTROL?

Some of the great saints who have influenced me most were sustained by an unshakeable faith that, no matter how bad things might look, all is going “according to God’s Plan.”  It’s easy to see how comforting this belief is, especially in the face of the horrors that face us.

But for me, the horrors are inexcusable—if we assume that God is capable of making things better than they are.  An all-powerful, all-knowing AND good God should be able to do better than this!  I remember talking to a Jewish lady at a scientific conference and I asked her if she was a practicing Jew and she said “No I am not. The holocaust was a betrayal.”

 

The bitterness of her statement comes from the idea, the hope, that God will do better, especially for God’s own peope!  The fact that God does not intervene in the horrors of this world is the single most painful and reasonable reason to believe that God does not exist at all.  I reject this—the evidence for the Holy is too strong for me—but then why is it so bad? Even if you argue that much of the evil we experience is due to human evil (war, exploitation, genocide), which we bring on ourselves and thus presumably “deserve” (call it original sin), what about the horrors of simple existence in this particular world? Earthquakes, cancer, the terrible waste and suffering of life in nature.

Am I myself bitter? You bet.  Raised to believe in an all-powerful loving God, much of my belief system now has been impacted by watching the three most important women in my life—my mother and two wives—all die slow and horrible deaths: cancer, bipolar disorder/suicide, and dementia.  All blind, hideous, random, undeserved.  I cannot forgive God for this.

    

However! If God is good (and I still believe in a good God), then there are two logical possibilities: either God is unable to intervene in the course of nature, or if able, unwilling.  The latter case suggests maybe some deeper good exists in God’s plan?  See the Biblical book of Job!  I have wondered if there might be some sort of metaphysical reason God doesn’t or can’t intervene.  Maybe there is something to do with free will!  Maybe a universe in which free will is possible is a universe in which God cannot intervene? An interesting idea but not very meaningful.  It really doesn’t matter whether God cannot or will not  intervene, does it?  The result is the same, a cruel existence in which kindness, generosity, love gleam faintly in the darkness.

Kindness, generosity, love—these are the evidence that there is a God. Not a God for whom we must be obedient children, but a still, small voice that keeps us from being animals.  We must listen to that voice and be adults, and try not to be the cause of suffering beyond that which we must endure from nature.  We are on our own.  A terrible burden, to be sure.  It's hard to be optimistic about humanity's ability to make it better.  I believe it is up to us, though.  What's more I believe we are capable of doing much more than we have accomplished so far.